Dear you,
あと６日でもうすぐ４ヶ月の記念日だね。私はその日にすごくお楽しみにしてるんだよっ！
今の３ヶ月の中に、私の人生がすごく変わった。君と恋に落ちてほんとうにいいことだと思ってる。
今まであの暑い夏を覚えてる。私があなたの自転車の後ろに乗って、いろいろんな話をして、
とても懐かしい。その時はね、君はただの友達だけだと思った。君が私の恋人になるのは全然
知らなかった。だって、あなたのことを全然興味がなかったから。（笑）
それで、７月１６日。二人がゲームセンターの中に話をした。
人：カイラちゃんって、ほんとうに弱いな人だね。（笑）～
私：うるせーな。弱いな人じゃねえーよっ！（怒）！！お前の方が弱いだろう。
人：ほんとうかよ？！それじゃ、お前が弱くないなら俺をキスして。できなかったら、
二人は付き合うね。
私：何だそれ！うん。それなら簡単。
（でもほんとうはその時はめちゃ緊張してた。笑～）
＊５分後・・・・・＊
人：おせーな。君はほんとうに弱いだ。（笑）～
私：誰が弱い？＊キス・・＊
ねえ、その時覚えてる？それは二人を初めてキスしたんだよ。その時で、初めて恋を感じた。
何か「この人は好き」という感じ。（笑）～
And then I just felt it. I fell in love. I thank god I made the right decision. To let my self fall in love with you.
これからもっと頑張りましょうね！君愛してるよ。
Kung alam mong mahal ka talaga nang mahal mo,kahit na kumausap pa siya nang kung sino mang babae/lalake,kung alam mo namang talagang ikaw lang ang mahal niya,e wala ka dapat ika selos. SILA dapat ang mag selos dahil sa dami daming babae/lalake jan,ikaw pa pinili nila. <3
Kung hindi mo lang rin maipaparamdam sakanya yung mga salitang binibitaw mo,mas mabuti kung MANAHIMIK ka nalang at wag na MAGSALITA.
Love is when you’re in the middle of a big problem and all he said was,”We can do this,baby.”
Then and now.
Two years ago: I fell in love with someone who I used to call my best friend. We admitted to each other that we have mutual feelings,but we never really declared that we’re in a relationship. We just suddenly acted like couples and decided to keep it that way because of the distance. Our so-called-relationship lasted for almost a month,though. And then all of a sudden,he became cold and said “I’m sorry,but long distance is too hard for me and I am still busy with school blah blah blah..”
One year ago: I was left heart broken and obviously still not over with it. I was confused and full of questions why it has to end that way. Why does it have to hurt like hell. It hurts so much I do not even know if I should cry or just shut up.
I was so hurt and still so not over him,and still figuring why does he have to left me like I was just *some* other girl to him. I was his best friend after all.
Six months later,I decided to make myself better. I learned how to take care of my self and build some more confidence. In that way,I was always thinking maybe if I’ll make myself prettier,he’ll come back to me. But no. It never happened. He never noticed me. But I was still trying hard. I’ve been trying so hard,I didn’t even notice that some people are dying just to get my attention. I was a fool. I was in love.
Now: A year have passed and still no. I tried to fall in love with some other guys but it’s just that,I never felt any spark between us. I always ended up hurting them.
And then summer came,I promised to myself that I will never fall in love again. Not until I am ready to get hurt. Again.
But guess what? And old friend of mine had re-connected and then we started hanging out. We never really took each other seriously.. We never really thought that we would really be together. And yeah. Him and I got together eventually.
For the second time,I felt the sparks once again. The first time we kissed felt like I got electrocuted. The sparks are stronger than sparks I used to felt. It was a bliss.
He is now my everything. <3 I thank God for giving me an angel. I love him so much.
Kapag may mahal ka,hindi na importante kung sino ang mas ma effort o mas nag mamahal. Sige lang,ibigay mo ‘yung best mo. Huwag na huwag kang mag sasayang nang araw nang hindi ipinapaalala at ipinararamdam sakanya kung ga’no mo siya kamahal. Dahil sa buhay,hindi naten alam kung hanggang saan sila sa buhay naten. :)
Malamang,maraming nagsasabi pa sa’yo na masyado ka pang bata para mag mahal. Pero alam mo? ‘Wag na ‘wag kang makikinig sa sinasabi nila. Alam mo kung baket? Dahil ikaw lang ang nakakakilala sa sarili mo nang lubusan at ikaw lang ang nakaka alam kung ano ang makakapag pakasaya sa’yo.
Sister and I talking..
Ate: Kai,patingin nga nung sinasabi mong ex ni ano na sinasabi mong sineryoso niya.
Me: Baket?
Ate: Wala lang. Dali na!
Me: *Logs on to Facebook..* Eto siya,o. Yan yung talagang minahal niya. :)
Ate: Tss. Di naman pala maganda,e. Parang ikaw lang.
Me: Kapal mo naman,’te! Sama mo. Hindi nga. Pero okay lang,diba?
Ate: Basta hindi nga maganda.
Me: Pfft.
Ate: Sigurado ka bang hindi na talaga sila niyan? Malay mo naman ginawa ka lang niyang girlfriend para meron sa Japan,meron din sa Pilipinas. Sigurado ka rin bang mahal ka niyan? Mamaya hindi naman pala talaga mahal niyan tapos ikaw baliw na baliw sakanya. Mamaya ikaw lang rin iiyak iyak sa huli.
Me: *Silence.*
It’s the very first time I heard my sister talk to me like that. I mean,it’s not that we don’t talk serious often,but this is the first time she showed that she cares about me. I don’t know why she’s so OVER PROTECTIVE about me getting hurt. Maybe because it’s the first time I introduced them my boyfriend. It’s the first time they saw me with another guy who isn’t part of our family,but a boyfriend.
I like the way how she is so over protective to me when it comes to love. Maybe because she doesn’t like me getting hurt because I am too young. Maybe. Idk.
Ano bang meron sa’yo at hindi kita magawang bitawan?
Alam ko namang gago ka. Gago ka sa babae. Alam ko naman na wala kang balak mag seryoso. Alam ko naman yun. Pero sinabe mo kase nagbago ka na..
Pero bakit parang habang nagtatagal,nag sasawa ka pa unti unti? Ibig sabihin ba nun e isa lang rin ako sa mga babaeng niloloko mo? Isa lang rin ba ako sa mga pang dagdag aliw mo? Takte kasi ang saket. Alam mo yun? Kahit na alam ko na ganyan ka,wala parin. Sige parin. Akala ko kasi mapapagbago kita eh.
Sinasabi mo nga na mahal mo’ko.. Puro lang naman salita,kulang lagi sa gawa. Mahal mo nga ba talaga ako? Ni hindi mo naman kasi pinapakita sa akin eh.. Takte kasi.
Masakit na. Ang sakit sakit na.
