Two years ago: I fell in love with someone who I used to call my best friend. We admitted to each other that we have mutual feelings,but we never really declared that we’re in a relationship. We just suddenly acted like couples and decided to keep it that way because of the distance. Our so-called-relationship lasted for almost a month,though. And then all of a sudden,he became cold and said “I’m sorry,but long distance is too hard for me and I am still busy with school blah blah blah..”

One year ago: I was left heart broken and obviously still not over with it. I was confused and full of questions why it has to end that way. Why does it have to hurt like hell. It hurts so much I do not even know if I should cry or just shut up. 

I was so hurt and still so not over him,and still figuring why does he have to left me like I was just *some* other girl to him. I was his best friend after all.

Six months later,I decided to make myself better. I learned how to take care of my self and build some more confidence. In that way,I was always thinking maybe if I’ll make myself prettier,he’ll come back to me. But no. It never happened. He never noticed me. But I was still trying hard. I’ve been trying so hard,I didn’t even notice that some people are dying just to get my attention. I was a fool. I was in love.

Now: A year have passed and still no. I tried to fall in love with some other guys but it’s just that,I never felt any spark between us. I always ended up hurting them.

And then summer came,I promised to myself that I will never fall in love again. Not until I am ready to get hurt. Again.

But guess what? And old friend of mine had re-connected and then we started hanging out. We never really took each other seriously.. We never really thought that we would really be together. And yeah. Him and I got together eventually.

For the second time,I felt the sparks once again. The first time we kissed felt like I got electrocuted. The sparks are stronger than sparks I used to felt. It was a bliss.

He is now my everything. <3 I thank God for giving me an angel. I love him so much.